I thought i was done with this
done with him
i thought i had finally subsided my feelings
i thought the nightmare of him would disappear
but deep inside i still have his candle
kindled in my heart
his face still embedded into my mind
the way it felt when we had the first kiss
the way he created a sense of belonging
he let me know i meant something
his hand still burns in mine
i still can recall when he broke my heart
when i learnt the first cut is the deepest
when they touched
i felt a little part of me curl up and die
as the pavement seemed to be moving faster then my tears
running into the arms of consulment
curled up in my heaven
sitting next to the entrance of the plantation
thats when i died
and became what you see today
